It's over.

I am so sad. My over 10 year friendship is over. I can almost say I am devastated. I loved this person.
I looked forward to talking to him daily. But, our friendship might have been the reason our relationships with our spouses weren't going so well.
We decided on a one month separation from one another, which turned into a permanent separation.
Being without him, causes me constant sadness. I'm not going to lie to you, I came to really love this man. He made me happy.
I am trying to let him go. But it's harder than you might think.