Killing Me

It has been over 20 years since that fateful first day my love walked into my life. Although, we have found each other again, we are too late.
We are both married, to other people, whom we can't leave, for various reasons. We are struggling in these relationships. Although, we have been friends forever, trying to hold onto our love and trying to hold on to our relationship, it's just not working. We are now in the process of trying to leave each other, so that our relationships might have a possible chance.
Leaving him and saying goodbye is killing me. I can't imagine him gone from my life. But, it's happening.

I love him and yet I am losing him again. I am letting him go. It is the hardest thing I will ever do. He is struggling within his own relationship just as I am. Any other relationship apart from one another will only be full of strife, because it is him and I that were meant to be, no other.