Busy

I'm trying to keep myself busy these days. The less time that I have for my brain to be idle the better.
You see when you are friends with someone for over 10 years and you email and communicate with them that way everyday, and it suddenly stops, it's hard to get over.
My brain automatically wants to talk and communicate with him. It is rather devistating at times, not to be able to.
I'm a stupid girl because I really hoped we would be friends till we were old.
Time to Let Go! Everyday I need to remind myself of this. It's my fault that I'm in this position anyway. I should have know better in the first place. But, this boy has always been my weakness. And if my daughter ever comes up to me when she's older and tells me she's found a boy who she loves, and that loves her, I'm not going to forbid her from seeing him. I'll let her see where their relationship goes and be there to support her, not condemn her.
I wish my parents would have done that for me.