Lately

I don't know what is up with me lately. I have been feeling so sad. I am normally not like this.
I know I've been feeling low because the loss of my friend. But, it's more than that.
I've been so unhappy with my husband. I'm tired of him.
It was my birthday and he had asked all my friends what I wanted for my birthday. But, it was all a waste, because he didn't even listen to them. He still managed to get me nothing that I wanted for my birthday. It's not like I am being selfish and unappreciative because I'm not. It's just he never listens to what I want. And you'd think after almost being married 20 years, he'd have some kind of idea of what I want and like. But no not my husband.