What I want to tell him.

How have you been lately?? Hopefully, good.
I've been struggling. I don't know why. I find that I am not happy with anything anymore. I was always happy before. Sure my husband drove me crazy but it was him. But, I still found joy and happiness in all that I did.
It seems like all I do lately is complain about my husband. He's never good enough and never is what I need. I've been in this perpetual glum mood lately. I can't get out of it.
But, then I came to the realization today, that maybe it is me, not my husband. Maybe, I am the messed up one. I'm the one with all the problems and issues and he's fine. I don't know anymore.
I no longer dream vivid, fun and crazy dreams. They are just blah now. It's weird. I don't even feel like myself. I feel sad all the time. What's wrong with me? (Not that you care or that it even matters anymore)
I think I've come to a cross roads of sort. I think I'm going to tell my husband how unhappy I am. How I've been feeling. What else can I do? I don't know because this is so unlike me. I need to try to get back to my normal self.
I really don't know what is wrong with me.


Oh BTW, I never meant for that dumb picture I sent you the other day to say true love on the stamp. It was a stamp frame & I didn't realize it said that until afterwards. I don't feel that way. I just wanted to say, I missed my friend. Again, not that it really matters.